I will be honest…..there have been many times that I didn’t want to pray for my child. His behavior drove me crazy over the years and after praying with no results, I started to believe that talking to God about my issues with my son, was not going to change the situation. When I did pray, I “prayed around” my concerns, believing there was “no point” because God wasn’t going to answer my prayers. I knew this thinking was definitely wrong, because God calls us to pray about everything (Phil. 4:6). We are to pray without ceasing (1 Thess. 5:17), no matter how we feel. Prayer isn’t based on what I think will or will not be the outcome. I must labor in prayer, trusting God for whatever he’s going to do or whatever He allows.
So, about a week ago, I learned how true this is, as I was tempted to forego praying for Nate, for a medical appointment. I remember thinking “Whatever is going to happen, is going to happen.” Also, if Nate has a tantrum, “so be it”. Yet, as those thoughts filled my head, I knew that I needed to pray. So I prayed days before his visit and up until I walked onto the elevator and off onto the cardiac floor. Once we were registered and escorted to a room for his sedated procedure, I was blessed with what I knew was only God’s doing. Nate was calm and happy, when in previous appointments, he was “on edge and combative.” I had to smile and thank God, because I knew that it was just a reminder from my Lord. He was showing me that I am to always pray, no matter how I feel or what I think is going to be the result. I am to never loose heart in prayer.