In December 2014, I started my blog. One of my intentions in keeping an online journal was to share my son and my life with others. Yet, along the way, I became discouraged at the task at hand.
I worried a lot. I told myself that what I was doing was stupid and no one would understand me. I believed that no one would like what I had to say, or would read my work. I also compared myself with other writers and bloggers, as my fear increased. Then sadly, within six months I stopped blogging.
During the time I was not writing or blogging, it bothered me. There was a constant thought and feeling that I needed to be writing and posting to my blog. Yet, I would not write and the feeling remained.
It was over a year, that I decided that I was tired of feeling vexed and burdened. It was time to stop ignoring, what I knew I was called to do, which is to “Write.”
So, I wrote.
And I wrote if my writing was horrible, if it didn’t sound right, if it made me angry, and if it was grammatically ugly or incorrect. I wrote if I hated my writer’s voice, and if I had to revise it a million times.
I just wrote!
Besides writing, I also posted to my blog. I made a decision that I was going to have a blog post for certain days of the week and I did. It didn’t matter if the blog post wasn’t perfect, received no views, no likes, or no comments. I just hit the, “Publish” button.
Then suddenly, as I continued to write, and post to my blog, something happened. I began to see results. My blog traffic slowly increased. I began to receive visitors, views, likes and comments. These were great results, however there were other results from blogging that made me happier.
What made me happy was the result of knowing that someone could relate to my life of raising my son with special needs. Also, that my blog post was encouraging and inspiring others.
It was the result of meeting fellow bloggers and reading some of their amazing blog post. Also, it is the result of receiving advice from fellow writers and bloggers that has helped me grow in my knowledge of writing and blogging.
It is the result of seeing my fear of writing end and my confidence increase.
And lastly, it is the belief that I will continue to grow as a writer, if I stay on this journey.
So, Keep Blogging…and your results will come.