Can I Pursue My Dreams, While Raising My Disabled Child?

Can I Pursue My Dreams, While Raising My Disabled Child? - Faithtoraisenate.com - charlenebullard.com - purposedrivencharlene.com charlenewrites.com
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Since I was a little girl, I have always wanted to write for a living. Creating fiction stories, writing songs, writing television shows, and more, was all I thought about. I fantasized about being a prolific writer, one that wrote stories that would change the lives of people. Stories that were read by millions, and translated into many languages. Stories that would hit the New York Times Best Sellers List and stay there for weeks. Yet, life didn’t go down that road. Instead, after high school, it veered off into the world of motherhood, down a path of raising a child with special needs. It was not a life that was conducive to writing.

Although I had many challenges, with the help of family and friends, I was able to go back to school and pursue a degree in education. This was great, but it wasn’t my first love, my true love – It wasn’t writing.

As I raised Nate, the thoughts of writing filled my heart and mind. So I wrote and filled tons of notebooks! And I typed, until my computer hard drive was filled with stories.

Yet, as time went by, I wasn’t sure if pursuing this goal was possible. My reasoning? Nate!  “How could I move forward in writing with Nate? How could I write with doctor appointments? How can I write with his therapy sessions? How can I doubtfully asked, while deciding to give up.

Now as I look back… at those times… at those moments…. I don’t see Nate as a barrier, stopping me from pursuing my goals. It wasn’t Nate. It wasn’t raising a child with special needs.

It was me.

It was my fears.
It was my excuses.
It was my need for perfection.

It was me.

I stopped me from pursuing my dreams.

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    dancingpalmtrees

    Well I think you are doing your best and from reading your blog you have been through many challenges and pushed forward. I think everyone with a disabled family member feels that way during their journey. Especially when the child/relative is young and most of the care falls on you. Now that Nate is in a Group Home Residence you have extra or spare time to concentrate on your writing.

    Obviously in my case our parents took care of Stephen when he was young but after they passed away it became my responsibility. In my humble opinion it is a matter of priorities. Stephen has had some rough times with seizure disorders and various psychological difficulties that took months to diagnose and resolve. Believe me when I say whatever I was doing or aspiring to at that moment of my life took a back seat to Stephen’s needs. That’s the way it is and being that there are only two of us that’s the way it will be.

    However once Stephen got through those obstacles and now as I approach retirement I feel that more opportunities will open up for me in regards to my photography and my artwork. I’m going to be in an art show in March. Gradually I’m creating more mixed media collages which I hope to see placed in coffee shops, maybe even small art galleries in Brooklyn and Queens. Eventually my writing will catch up to everything else. I think Women are good at having many irons in the fire and juggling. Sure I wish I had a support system but I’ve learned to do things on my own. You seem to have a great network of friends and family to help you. That’s wonderful. It takes off some pressure. Anyway you are a young woman and I believe that all your dreams will come true. Time is on your side.

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